The drugs began to peak

A smile of joy arrives in me

But sedation changes to panic and nausea

& breath starts to shorten

And heartbeats pound softer.

You won't try to save me

You just want to hurt me and leave me desperate.

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?

You're my hero..-

You won't leave me alone
Chisel my heart out of stone
I give in everytime.

I bet you laugh
At the thought of me thinking for myself

I bet you believe

That I'm better off with you than someone else

Your face arrives again
All hope I had becomes surreal
But under your cover's

More torture than pleasure

And just past your lips

There's more anger than laughter

Not now or forever will I ever change you

I know that to go on I'll break you, my habit

I WILL SAVE MYSELF.-